Lord I don’t speak as you would have me
I don’t speak out of fear of rejection
I don’t speak for fear of mockery
I don’t because I worry I may lose my faith in you.
I have seen other lose the light you gave them lord
I have seen them reject your holy grace
Am I so different?
I am so strong compared to those?
Am I lost sheep in waiting?
Yes I know you would never stop loving me
Yes I know you would never stop pursuing me
But what If I stopped loving you?
What if I ran from you lord?
My faith must be weak – I have these doubts
My faith must be small for I fear losing it
My faith must be useless for it has brought no one to you lord
See Lord I art weak and they art mighty
I am faithless and they art eternally faithful
I am worthless they art beyond worth
So if you have some time keep an eye on me lord
Keep your hand on my shoulder
Keep your spirit in me
Don’t let me lose your herd
Don’t let your light go out in me
Do this for your love of me
Do this in your endless mercy
Do this because your strength never fails
Do this please lord